The driveway....

So, last night around 1109 pm, I left the safety of my recliner, MacBook and huge TV to take Beaux out to "do his bidness."

While standing in our driveway, I looked up to the sky.

I saw stars, blinking and flashing. Beneath the stars, the low clouds from the day's earlier storms were moving by at a meandering pace.

And WHAM !!!!! There it was, my new BFF. Grief.

I hit the concrete, and tried to stifle my wail enough so that the neighbor's wouldn't think the tornado sirens were going off again.

And I lost my mind.

And while I was there, curled up on the cool concrete, Beaux came and sat next to me. Then he laid down beside me and put his head on my arm.I held him and cried and wailed and hurt and squoze him til I knew it hurt but he kept letting me squeeze him anyway. He's a Mann like that.

I asked one particular shiny star after the cloud cleared "Is that you Baby?" and I swear it shone brighter. I knew then I was officially check crazy and hugged Beaux tighter. He just put his paw on my neck and hugged me back.

God I love this dog. Greg loves this dog. Maybe he is my guardian through this journey.

I hope so, cause I need all the help I can get.

Thanks Bo-Bo. We love u.


TexasRaceLady said...

Keep looking up, Kim.

Don't let it beat you down.

Keep looking up.


Lindsey said...

Awwww, Beaux. What an awesome dog. :)

Amanda said...

I am really sorry for your loss.

It is amazing how our dogs stay by our sides, isn't it?

Coloradolady said...

There is nothing like the love of a dog...he will help you through this tough time, I am sure of it.

I agree, keep looking are not alone....

LOVIN7 said...

Cozzie, I'm SO sorry you're hurting so much. I hope that special star and your loyal pooch give you comfort. ((HUGS))

Big Pissy said...

Beaux is the best....he knows how much you need him.