It's been 4 weeks today since G died. At 1109 pm tonight. I get off work at 930pm. I plan to be hiding under the covers again soon thereafter.

4 weeks. It seems like a lifetime. This is the longest we've been apart in almost 6 years. And it's permanent.

It's draining me. I am slowly swirling around the bowl, so to speak.

And yes, I went to the JB concert last night.


I had fun. But it was more forced fun, ya know? When I actually let myself go for a minute, the guilt creeped back in.

It's like my own personal little monkey-on-my-back. &*#^%

But I'll post more about Jimmy later. It was nice to have my "old friend" back in my life, if only for three hours. And thanks everlasting to my BFF Rossthe8oss for going with me!! You are a true friend.

There is an interesting story that accompanies the person I sat next to (not Ross). That will be for later. I'm still hashing the irony of that out.

Right now, I'm just glad this week is over. The tree, the car, my mood in general.

I hope I hope I hope next week looks a teeny bit better? Please?

I miss you baby. It's time to start being my "G"uardian angel.


Rossthe8oss said...

hahah oh and dont forget the rental car!! lol i had so much fun with you kim!!!!

TexasRaceLady said...

Kim, sounds like you had a blast.

And I totally understand the guilt feeling you had. It is normal. You're alive and having fun -- and then you remember that "G" isn't there to share.

I want to hear the story from the concert. And what is the rental car business? LOL

One day at a time, girlfriend. You will make it.

Coloradolady said...

Here is wishing you a brighter week too. Four weeks can feel like a is hard to believe I know. Take care.

Big Pissy said...

I think you're doing great!

Sounds like a lot of fun.

We need to hear the rental car story! ;-)

Big Pissy said...

I'm confused: did I leave that comment on the wrong post????

I'm sleep deprived and using someone else's computer.

Sorry! :)

Bubblewench said...

Ya know I'm not gonna TRY to make you feel better.. you will when you are ready..

Still here for you :)

And glad you are getting out, even if it is 'forced'. It's important.