Monday

OK, so I went........

....to the counselor.

Meh.

You know how when you realize you can communicate with someone justlikethat?

Kind of an instant connection ? All quick-like. That comfort zone just says "Hi ! Here I am!"

Today...not so much.

It wasn't that I was uncomfortable. But I wasn't really comfortable either.

First of all, there was a "mix-up" in the calender scheduling between he and his assistant. Which he informed me would cut our session short, I could come back later, he needed me to fill out a few things blah blah blah.

Ever feel rushed? Like you're holding someone up?

Yea. That was my feeling. When he's checking for another time in the book before you've even begun this session, it's kind of a buzzkill.

And the office. I've never been to a therapist / counselor / psychiatrist whatever before, but in my mind the office should have been more, oh what am I trying to say ? Warm ? Comforting ? Instead, it was kinda cluttered and messy and just not somewhere I could feel like I wanted to bare my soul. And I feel bad because it's a free service so what kind of bitch am I not to be on my knees thanking them profusely?

Maybe it's just me ? My emotions have the consistency of tapioca right now, and I am sure my judgement is as cloudy as a 79 Toyota burning oil...so I will probably go back again just to make sure my gut reaction wasn't steering me wrong, and maybe things will be different. I'm definitely doing the group thing starting in May. Maybe that will be better.

So anyway, I went.

I did get to have coffee and lunch with two awesome friends afterward though (thanks L & S !), with an added bonus of new comfy pajamas (on sale!) on a quick retail therapy stop with L. They have the whole Buddha , Nepal , zen thing going on. So that made me happy.

I'm waiting for them to come out of the dryer now.

Warm jams.....they rock my world.

And if that's what gets me through today, I'm all about em.

4 comments:

Big Pissy said...

I'm so glad you got out; both to the counselor and to lunch and a bit of shopping with friends. That's great!

Hope you're in your toasty warm jammies cuddling up with your puppies. :)

Lil Sis said...

Warm jammies...good for you. I had to try a couple of therapists before I found the one that "clicked" for me, and I sorta knew after 2 appointments that it was a good fit for me.

Good luck with that part of it, can't hurt to keep trying sista...glad you got lunch and shopping too.

lots of love,
lil'sis

Big Pissy said...

Just came by to check on you and say "hi"! :)

TexasRaceLady said...

Getting out is a good thing.

Warm jammies on a cold night are great!